Ok, so I was thinking about how I could build up my credibility and be professional. I thought about putting badges of organizations I belonged to on the blog and having people see what kind of person I am by what kind of organizations and associations I belonged to. So I started looking for associations specifically oriented with helping LGBT youth. The weird thing was I couldn't find any really legitimate associations that did anything of the sort. So I remembered talking to a friend that was thinking of setting up a website about LGBT issues and she was using yola.com to build her site. The moment I realized that I decided to start my own association to bridge the gap. My association would help kids connect and get active in their environments, communities and schools. It would help them get active and help them learn about what is going on in the LGBT world at large, even connect them to bigger LGBT organizations. This is called the National Gay Youth Association, and I have begun building the site at http://ngya.yolasite.com and though it is not finished yet I will encourage you to check it out now and to leave feed back on our contact us page. Also please feel free to promote our site on your social networking profiles such as facebook and twitter. I have started a facebook fan page for NGYA and enourage you to become a fan there as well. This is really exciting for me and even though I am still down, I know that this will make things better.
"cuz im in too deep and im trying to keep up above in my head instead of going under, stead of going under again, stead of going under again.." -In Too Deep, Sum 41
Friday, February 26, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Down, Down, Down
I feel so down today. I don't really know why, I should feel happy. My article came out yesterday (ill scan it later, I promise) and I feel good about all my classes (even my chem test). Even so I feel like I did before vacation. Like no one cares about me that doesn't feel obligated to. I feel like I don't have anyone in the world but myself, and that I can't stop the enviable from happening. I wish I could remember what happened way back when, maybe it would help me sort out these feelings, but I cant. I can't believe she got what she wanted, she complained and whined and still it came true. Why doesn't that happen to me, no matter how strong I am or how much I keep my mouth shut, nothing goes my way. I get so paranoid, I wish that I could make those girls go away. Even the ones who support me can't help but stop and stare, because I am different and different is not necessarily good. I don't really know what is making me feel this way, but I don't like it. I want to cry.
"hold your head high heavy heart. take a chance and make it big because it's the last you'll ever get, if we dont take it when will we make it?" - The Phrase That Pays, The Academy is...
"hold your head high heavy heart. take a chance and make it big because it's the last you'll ever get, if we dont take it when will we make it?" - The Phrase That Pays, The Academy is...
Monday, February 22, 2010
Ive been really preoccupied lately so i havent posted in a month....
So,
1. I dropped out of the speech...I couldn't let myself become the martyr for the school, I can't let them run me out, I cant let them win. There still will be a speech, I just won't be in it.
2. My BFF Hannah was going to come to NY next month but then she had to tell me she couldn't come because of her health and I got really depressed
3. I had a really long talk with my English teacher about how Heschel works, my life and why no one excepts me, not even my family
4. February break is here and gone and I still have not seen my CA friends or even talked to my Aunt and Uncle, I'm still mad at them
5. I dont really feel feminine anymore, I have to admit that I am not comfortable in my own skin
6. The GSA was started but then I couldn't go anymore because it was on a day where I already had a prior commitment, and I cant change it
7. Emma Goldberg (the person who wrote the article about me, which still has not come out yet) and I are working on a website for GSA's to connect with each other
8. I really feel lonely and desprate...I need a girlfriend...like now
Emmy....<3
-"I will not make the same mistakes that you did, I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery, I will not break the way you did you fell so hard, I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far"
-Because of you, Kelly Clarkson
1. I dropped out of the speech...I couldn't let myself become the martyr for the school, I can't let them run me out, I cant let them win. There still will be a speech, I just won't be in it.
2. My BFF Hannah was going to come to NY next month but then she had to tell me she couldn't come because of her health and I got really depressed
3. I had a really long talk with my English teacher about how Heschel works, my life and why no one excepts me, not even my family
4. February break is here and gone and I still have not seen my CA friends or even talked to my Aunt and Uncle, I'm still mad at them
5. I dont really feel feminine anymore, I have to admit that I am not comfortable in my own skin
6. The GSA was started but then I couldn't go anymore because it was on a day where I already had a prior commitment, and I cant change it
7. Emma Goldberg (the person who wrote the article about me, which still has not come out yet) and I are working on a website for GSA's to connect with each other
8. I really feel lonely and desprate...I need a girlfriend...like now
Emmy....<3
-"I will not make the same mistakes that you did, I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery, I will not break the way you did you fell so hard, I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far"
-Because of you, Kelly Clarkson
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