Winter Break makes me not post

Ok reasons I havent posted in like 2 weeks

1. I got a kindle!
2. I am sorry to admit I am addicted to engadget
3. I like to play brawl with my friends
4. my dad was here for the past 4 days
5. it was hannukah/ christmas...spending time with family
6.  I finally wrote 10000 words of my memoir
and finally I just like to think...clear my mind

Update on LGBT stuff: I am tentativly scheduled to give a speech to the whole school (i dont know if there will be a speaker there but my fingers are crossed), I am watching milk with the human rights club on jan 15, I am doing a photo essay on gay rights for my photography final project and my partner in crime told me that the school has authenticated an actual GSA. I dont know but 2010 looks to be an exciting year of Gay Rights history for me and for all students out there. We can make it happen, We will make it happen. 2010 the year of equality for all!

SORRY!

AHHH! I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to leave you hanging for so long. I really wanted; but didn't get any :( response to my memoir. I got a Kindle, Wii, Starbucks GC, ladybug shaped box and brand new red bag for Hanukkah. I love all of them (except for the Kindle, which will be waiting for me when I get home) a nd am having alot of fun beginning to get acquainted with my new gifts. I saw Wicked yesterday with my aunt and uncle and while it was much fun I am looking forward to spending more alone time with them, especially my uncle who gives me fatherly like advice. I really want to go to CA in February to spend more time with them and my friends, but my Uncle says he's working and might not have time. It makes me sad because I love the desert, my home, I miss my friends and they have been begging me to come for a really long time, finally I love to spend time with my aunt and uncle and thats not really possible now. I guess we'll see.

I really want speaker to email me! AHH

You didnt ask for it!

I'm sharing the first page of my memoir with u anyway....AND ALL NAMES HAVE BEEN CHANGED AND PLACES to protect my privacy


I think that my purpose in life is to share my story with people. My story is unlike any other, unique and humbling but also filled with action and excitement. I know that I’m only 15 and I probably don’t know as much as someone who’s older than me, but I do know a lot for my age. I was forced to grow up fast and never had time to look back, and now I am reflecting on all that’s happened, and it’s been a surprising experience. I wrote this book to share that with you and all the people of the world, So that they can read it and give it to the next generation to come. So here it goes, my story the way I was born, brought up and how I came here today.
On August 30th 1994 I was born at The Med hospital in Birmingham, Alabama. I weighed 5 pounds 3 ounces and my parents were Lawrence Tanner and Delilah Resse. Before I tell you my story I want to tell you a bit about my parents, both of who had their good and bad qualities. My mother Ms. Delilah Erin Resse (also known as Dell or Ms. Resse to her students) was born on August 27th, 1953 in Birmingham. Her parents were Nellie and Stuart Resse. Her mother was a holocaust survivor and a secretary (also a tutor later in life) and her father managed a grocery store. She also had a sister whose name was Lisa who her mother favored deeply. She was always ignoring my
Mother’s accomplishments, and when that happened my mom would always run to her grandmother, Faye. From what I've heard Faye was an excellent person and an even more wonderful grandmother and friend. My mom would run to her whenever she needed to just get away. When my mother was around 16, she developed anorexia and my grandmother found out and was very angry and subsequently pulled my mom out of the treatment center she was in. My mother’s symptoms subsided over the years but because she never got treated she developed complications such as heart problems and depression.   The story in my family goes that both of my grandfathers worked in a hair gel factory and got leukemia. My mom’s father died when my mom was 19. When my mom was 18 she went to Peabody college (now known as Vanderbilt University) and got her masters in teaching. She began teaching at a local elementary school back in Birmingham and one day her friend Anne introduced her to her cousin, my father Lawrence Tanner. My father was born on December 9th, 1950. His parents were Matilda and Stanley Tanner and he had a brother that was 7 years older than him, Eric Tanner. My grandfather died when my dad was 12 of leukemia (see above) . My uncle says that after that my father became very angry and ignored his mother, he says that he never made a connection with others. But he was also upset over the death of his father and the sacrifices that he now had to make for his family. When my father was 18 he went to university of Oklahoma but after a year there he transferred to the university of Texas where he dropped out after a year, he never finished college. After that he went back to Birmingham where he became a toy buyer. I don't really know how long my parents went out before my father proposed, nor how long they were engaged for, all I know is that my parents were married sometime during the year 1982.   When I was younger my mom showed me pictures of her wedding they were beautiful, my mom looked like a princess and my dad looked as handsome as he could get, it was nice. I don’t know how they were married 12 years before I was born, my parents never seemed to get along after, maybe I did that to them but I don’t think so. I think they might have just grinned and bearded it for the sake of not being alone. Because of all my moms health problems she wasn't supposed to be able to have children so when I came along everyone thought of me as a miracle child. My uncle said this was a very good time for my mom; she gained weight and was very happy. Unfortunately, shortly before my mother became pregnant her grandmother died at the age of 95 and my mom wanted to name me after her but she told my mom not to name her child fanny. My parents also had a deaf Boston terrier, trucker who died of (it's debatable) either an asthma attack or starvation the day I was born.

There you have it...thats only the beginning

When a kid goes bad.

I know that life can be daunting and get you down, it happens to me all the time. What i dont understand is the anger that builds up from that feeling. Why are people so angry all the time? Why do they take their anger out on people that have nothing to lose? Is it just human nature? Or is it something more? This whole thing reminds me of a tom petty song "when a kid goes bad" (yes i listen to tom petty and yes I like to use song refrences). Still nothing from LOL and its been 3 days! I'm waiting until tomorrow night but im noy the most pateint person. GRRR.

Last thing:

Poll:
I've been writing a memoir for a while now and while its not finished I'd like to know if you guys would lie to view my work in progress:
(1 yes
(2 provide a synopsis and then ill decide
(3 no thanks

POST ANSWERS AS COMMENTS PLEASE.

"in a car with a girl promise me shes not your world"-Andy Your a Star, The Killers

Emmy

Nothing

I didnt get to do much today, or yesterday for that matter. But it's ok with me. I still have not heard from Live Out Loud, but I'm waiting until tuesday to write them again. Anyone else have any suggestions of speakers? That would be great! Also, I know I did not post a Vlog this week, it was my oops hopefully I'll have one up soon, like on thurs. Anyway, nothin much happinin.

News

I got word from Student Senate yesterday that a speaker can come to school next month. I emailed live out loud but no response yet (fingers crossed) if on tuesday I dont have a response I will email GLSEN and ask if they have any suggestions for speakers. Posting a New Vlog tonight hope you guys will watch. Today I'm doing some more gift shopping. I really want it to be hannukah already!

Yesterday...

Gay marriage vote in NY, turned down. Average grade on an english essay= 73.87. Number of times I've stopped a person from saying offensive language in school today (I.E its only 10:24)= 2. How much of an emotional rollercoaster my life is right now= alot. When was the last student senate meeting? yesterday. Did I get an email from any student senators yet? no. Vocab quiz today? Yes. Am I ready? maybe. How much I hate chem right now? a tiny bit, its just boring. What do I want you to do? follow me on twitter: rememberandhope. What do I want to be doing right now? buying and wrapping presents (I'm defanetly a holiday person)

"Yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away..."

An acheivment for the ages

Yesterday I gave a groundbreaking speech in the history of Heschel. Never before has someone gotten up in front of many a student to speak about LGBT rights. The sense of acomplishment I feel exeeds anything I've felt before. People asked many questions after and during my speech and now the student senate has asked me to do more. To set up a rosh chodesh (new month) program with me & a speaker talking to the whole school. People kept saying how brave I was, but I wasn't doing it for myself, I was doing it for everyone in the school to come and who is already here. I love what I do and I will never change my course, I will never give up. I know in my heart that this is right and nothing can stop me now. I can acheive the once unattaniable.

oops!

I totally forgot to post yesterday! I was so busy with homework and this speech that I just blanked out about the blog. Speaking of the speech, I'm trying to get an issue resolved with that right now. Worst possible result, it gets rescheduled to friday (I have my fingers crossed though). Yesterday nothing notable happened. I was just happy to be back at school with my friends so I could vent to all of them. I'm also wearing all of my Ally Week prizes today...sticker, wristband & T-shirt. I'm happy with that, proclaming who you are is not a bad thing (dispite what some people might think). I just want to get this on track, to get somewhere before winter break starts (december 23rd). I need this. I will fight for it now.

I'll let you know how the speech goes (if it happens) later

the days go by...

today i woke up (and i want more...target commericals) and immideatly checked my email and twitter as I always and got an email from my dad (who does not live in my vicinty...you will get to know me and my story over time) and part or it said "As for your Chanukah gift: I already have it. I can't tell you what it is but I'll send it to you at Chanukah time. It cost about $200.

 What could it be??????" the only thing I could think of that fits the criteria is the DROID from verizon wireless, which makes me really happy. I spent my day doing 4 things: writing my speech (in my head, its not perfect yet but its getting there), doing my laundry, researching the droid and getting some gifts at target. It was a pretty good day overall but I'm dreading going back to school tomorrow.

GRRR

Errands

No LGBT related stuff today, although I am still trying to sort out my speech for tuesday (suggestions?). I just ran errands with my mom (frame maker, shoe repair, pedicures) finished making (not checking) my holiday checklist and hollowing out plans for my hannukah party and my uncle's visit in 2 weeks. I plan to go after the rush to target tomorrow to try and get more of my holiday shopping done. I feel an influx of school work coming on so I'm not sure how I'll be able to get it done otherwise. I have alot on my plate (especially this week).

How is everyone out there doing?

Black (and rainbow) Friday

Today we went to Lawrence, NY to go to a thrift store (a family tradition on black friday) and it was very fun and I got some really good deals. I also got the rest of my prize package from the GLSEN and I plan to watch Brother Outsider very soon. I wish that I could have done all my holiday shopping! I have my overstock cart all filled up and ready to go but I have to wait for my mom to order it. My gift tracker check list is all checked!

Happy Black Friday!!!!

An Advocate Thanksgiving

Today was a nice break from the everyday. Nice people, nice food and a cuddly puppy. I love talking to my cousins, all of whom are older than me & in college or grad school. Their all really nice and treat me just as if i was their age, there is nothing that sets me apart from them. It's always nice to be with the part of my family who accepts and cherishes me for exactly who I am. I try to relish in family tradition and really be with people not just make conversation. Tomorrow I'm inherriting the tradition of going to our family's favorite thrift store on black friday. I'm excited, because It's always been my mom's thing but now maybe, it can be mine. I love 5 day weekends too. I still have 3 days left and I'm gonna try to grab every second of free time I can get before It's gone. I'm sitting down here to write because I want to avoid cleaning up. I know thats sneaky of me but that's just how I am sometimes...don't penalize me for that! I love thanksgiving...and this is the first one for me thats ever felt real (I've only had 5  thanksgivings)!

NEW VLOG POST

I'm in the process of putting up a new Vlog post on youtube right now! its mainly just stuff but still check it and leave comments! thanks,

Emmy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_2YcXT8BhE8

Hey Everyone

  Hi I'm Emmy, and this is my blog. Its a supplement, a helper if you will to my podcast that you can find at the top of this page, here: http://lgbtadvocate.blip.tv/rss and soon on itunes. I know that reading this might not be that exciting at times but i really need help with this fight. That's right, I called it a fight. But it is. It's a fight to make my school the first Jewish school in NYC to gain a GSA. I need to make things right for me as the first openly gay person and for all the kids who have yet to come out but will. There needs to be a support system at my school. People need to see who I am and why I matter. Where is the goodness that the Jewish community always promises? The people are not living up to what they promised me at the tours of the school. It's a shame what people will do to you sometimes. I'm not saying the faculty and students dont care they just have other, more important things on their mind. That reminds me of a rent song i used to listen to called "You'll See" (BTW rent is a musical that has alot to do with gay rights + it's my fave musical) and they will see that this year, it will be a transformative year for our school and for many other schools across the country. Please Join me any way you can. I go to meetings monthy with an organization called live out loud (liveoutloud.org)  and i volenteer with the GLSEN (glsen.org) alot. Please help me in this battle within my community.

Thanks

"I have seen the others and I have discovered that this fight is not worth fighting and I've seen their mothers and I have no other to follow me where I'm going"